So I was lucky enough to go and see Sleeping with Sirens, Issues, Memphis May Fire and Breathe Carolina the day after my birthday and ima blog about it so I dont forget lol. Sadly I didnt get up in the front because it took two freaking hours for all of us to get inside but i am totally okay with that. I must say that I am impressed with all of these band. I mean I love sleeping with sirens and memphis may fire but i never really listened to breathe carolina or issues but wow! Breathe Carolina put on such a freaking fun show, I dont even know. I loved it. And of course sleeping with sirens, I love them. Kellin has such a nice voice and I just love that band. Whats even cooler is they had a guitarist fill in for jesse but it was Nick Martin from DRUGS and isles and glaciers! Like holy cow wow! Woo! I am excited. I didnt get to meet any of them like i had with A Skylit Drive but thats ok. I didnt stick around cause I was tired. Over all, I am super happy that I went. They are all such great people. You can tell they really love what they do. Kellin made a couple statements about how bands aren’t shit without their fans. Yeah they mean a lot to us but to other people they dont mean anything. I love when bands are humble enough to admit that they arent better than any of us. He also reminded us that its up to us to change the outcome of our lives. We are all around the same age and there are people out there who think we aren’t worth a damn, so we should dictate our futures, not them. Matty also was saying that if we want to change the world, we need to go it ourselves. I love when singers say that they will be there for you if you just listen when your feeling down because they’ve been through it too. I mean I know this probably sounds super freaking cliche and really cheesy but its so true. Its cool to have bands who actually care for their fans because they’ve been there too. I just love it. Mad props to these guys because they just earned some major respect from me.
Sleeping With Sirens
Memphis May Fire
Sadly, I didn’t get any pictures of Breathe Carolina or Issues. I liked Issues but I didn’t take any pictures and I was too busy having fun to take pictures of Breathe Carolina but I will when Fiestas roll around. Their show was seriously so much fun.
It’s getting so easy to just turn my back on people and just walk away. I’ve been stepped on and dragged through the mud by so many people its pathetic. I guess I shouldn’t complain because I did it to myself. I put myself in these situations. I turned a blind eye when I knew what they were doing behind my back. I just thought it was easier to ignore it than have to confront the issue and face destroying “friendships.” I was wrong. The more time goes on the easier it is for me to just cut the ties and walk away. I used to be so afraid of losing friendships but now I am just cutting them all off. I’m not fucking around anymore. People take me for granted and I am not an idiot. I am fully aware of what you do. No more bitches. Save your breath because you have fucked me over one too many times. There is no coming back from this.
I am so good at waiting until the last possible second and then fucking myself over. What the actual fuck.
In other news, boys are dumb. I mean what the fuck.
Why do I even waste my time on you?! Bligh!
Sometimes my ability of not caring causes issues. I am too forward.
I really wasn’t going to post about this because I was just going to shake it off and forget about it and be mature but I can’t let go without giving my personal opinion on it.
First of all, I have never met more selfish people in my entire life. Are you kidding me? You blatantly talk about things in front of me and when I mention I want to get invited I get ignored. Well fuck me. So when I finally ask what the problem is, I get the answer “We need space.” After I had spent a month trying to give you space. How much more space do you want? I am not transferring schools, thank you. That is just stupid.
Second of all, I go home for a week because my dad is sick and has to start a new chemo because his levels kept going up and they have the AUDACITY to tell people that they weren’t aware that I was out of town when I told three people directly that I was leaving. Not to mention that I wasn’t in class for 5 days in a row when I haven’t missed class the entire semester. Alright. Then, I hear that “giving space” doesn’t mean cutting them off completely. Oh excuse me, I had exams to make up. I’m sorry that I don’t tell you my whereabouts because you are not my mother.
Tell people that I was ignoring you. Go ahead, I honestly don’t care. I should have seen this coming. My best friend goes to boot camp and everyone “gets tired of me” and then begin to accuse me for their fuck ups. I was completely alone but you tell people that I’m being rude? Alright.
I am not interested in “working things out.” I was civil and never said anything bad about you, EVEN when you had someone talk to me to see if I would talk shit and had other people approach me to solve the problems. I am not going to be around selfish people who lie to place the blame on someone else. I deserve better and I don’t want to be around cowards. Its just stupid. And absolutely ridiculous. I apologized for so many things that weren’t my fault. Whatever.
I’ll see you on the flip side and I wish you luck in your life because God knows I won’t be in it.